I'm afraid, afraid of what lurks in the darkest depths of my heart, what he thinks as he wakes this morning, what may have disappeared overnight, our connection was so strong, so urgent and what we both thought would last. My head is full of swirling thoughts, my stomach turns at every twist and yet I sit here waiting.
Will he call me, will he walk away like I offered, the longer the day goes on the more I begin to think he has done just that. The music that surrounds me now is extremely loud, the walls shake with the sound, it's my way of not listening to my thoughts, of drowning every emotion out instead of facing what I caused.
*Sigh* my heart aches, my head feels heavy and I have so much to do "Aimer c'est plus fort que tout" if ony I believed that this morning maybe then my day could begin.